state of mind

Okay so I'm writing this assignment and it's gotta be at last 15 pages Long and it's killing me softly, i seriously can't write it at home because my brain is like Oh this is cozy Let's Play Resi 4don't worry Champ ur gonna slay that bitch tomorrow so and i'm 1/3 of the way and due date is like the 29th and i'm like gosh I'm soooh Behind I gotta step it up so right now i'm sitting at this place called "StudenterHuset"

where I feel I can write a ton of shit and can literally write it anywhere else except for at home because my brain goes to cozy mode, my goal was to write a pages each day so i would be done on Monday and have 6 days off but NOOOH so right now I'm trying to write 5 more pages so on monday i can get the last 5 and BOOM-SHAKALAKA!

and I have no idea why I work best underpressure but I do Sooo here goes nothing oh and on the 29th my Grandma on my Father's side is coming all the way from Chilliwack,Canada and I can't wait to see how she's doing and if she have anything for me...

HEEEY Don't judge if it was ur grandma who lives overseas wouldn't u want something cool too even though ur almost 23?

of course u would i wished for a Flannel or the Canadian flag because it's part of me

Btw went to c DP on St. V's day And it...was...FUCKING AWESOME!!!!!
U gotta see it was akosnfoinfondfnsBFBFBFANBFNFÆkcnsdnsvwnfione!!!!
I laughed Soo hard that after the movie and the end credit had rolled, My chest felt like that one scene In the first Alien movie where the chestburst happens oh oh for the Love of ScarJo's jades it was good :3   

            

Frozen beyond repair

okay so yesterday I was a bit moody ....okay I was kinda sad it was just something really personal and dear to me and I really needed Rolf by my side at that time but he was busy and I was a bit...Me I felt a bit sad about the fact that his report was more important than his...guy of course it's for his exam GRODD! I outta stop giving Peeps Alibis or good reasons to do stuff goooosssssssshh
so I was sad about the personal thing and the Rolf letting me down thing to make everything waaaaaaay better when he told me that he would be there for me whenever I NEEDED HIM ....
yes I was pissed at that comment cuz He wasn't there!!!

then He starts Joking about stuff about Why I needed him to come and dear Foxies rule nb....whatever yes it is so important it is number Whatever  

"Never ever ever ever Joke about me being sad when i'm depressed" cuz i think it's insensible and not a clever move when people trust u to respect them 

well then everything got worse because well Rolf told me he was Sad about me being sad and that just makes me even sadder because I felt that I was in his way before all this and the text i'd got kinda Proved it because he was sad because of me being sad I know i know but c'mon see it from my point when ur depressed is it uplifting to hear that it makes the person km away sad...hope not otherwise I might need some of those pills Grodd see now I did sigh well the good news is today i got two gift cards and I bought something  for myself and for Rikke for the gift cards in the body shop 

And what I bought was A Grapefruit body butter(50ml) for her and got it tugged in like a little Christmas Presents and a Frosted Plum bodybutter(50ml) for myself  :3 and even though I'm feeling better i'm still kinda Mad at Rolf but Pizza, Manicure, Massage, coffee, cake and this Bodybutter all I'm missing is some no i'm mad so no sex xD

well almost there it's weird yet funny but um as some of u know I'd made some things on Polyvore because it's calming like with a ur wearing a brand new pair of jeans MMMmmm

oh and still haven't got my present from Rolf I wish my face could move but the face mud masque  prevents me from changing face expression so right now I look like Grumpy cat and this is why I wanna laugh #ThxRyan